♥ heart on wings

Yucks, I don't feel like facing the world.
Just feel like staying at home.
F off, school. I hate you.

10:31 PM;

Thunderstorms, rainy days, cooling days.
How I wish thunderstorms will never end,
And I can snuggle in the comfort of home,
Away from the outside world.

6:20 PM;

Sheesh! The 'vow' made in the previous post is useless. Okay. Shit. I can't help blogging. Woowah. Updates on school life. Signed up for yoga as compass elective and it's so refreshing even for only an hour. Will want to pursue yoga in the future! Relaxing although the poses are rather straining. Went in the morning to go swimming at the pool near my old house. Oh my, the swimming complex changed so much ever since...6 years ago?? Wow, six years. Changed for the better, it's now newer with more facilities and the toilets are nicely clean. And the water features are so fun, although the lifeguard laughed at me and Xin Yi for wanting to play in the baby pool. Haha. We didn't care anyways.

The third try for Bronze Medallion is coming up...hope I can really pass this time round (though the coach wants me to swim breast-stroke, my fastest stroke haha so funny) and after swimming, went to the libary. Jie Ming and Xin Yi left earlier and it was so nice, being in the library and comfortably alone and cosy. Which makes me realise that I can't study all the time at home the space is just too small and makes me want to scream at times. Haha, claustrophobia? I can't really study with people, maybe just with a friend or two.

Saw Fiona and Jie Ling just now while walking something of an intuition made me saw them walking across the road! Miss them much and miss talking with them while eating at KFC about two weeks ago. And happy birthday Fiona, if you're reading this. Paiseh I've got no present for you but I hugged you just now haha...miss ya all. Was reflecting upon mid-year results and the first half of the year. Am more happy now in school because I guess I've found some form of comfort in some of my classmates and I hope I'll have many more true friends in time to come and that the class will be more bonded and all and that I'll be as close with the teachers as with my secondary school teachers and that I'll put more heart and soul into my studies. Was lost and disheartened during the first half of the year, hated going to school everyday the aloof environment, even considered the idea of withdrawing out of school. Did like no effort in the exam no wonder the results. Woah. Couldn't believe that now. I wonder what will happen if I really did that.

Okay, time to stop looking back and look ahead! One more month to the big time exam, maybe even bigger than O Levels. Ha. I have to get really safely promoted, at least a D and above for all subjects! Yeah.

Many blesses to my father, I know you'll pull through this. I just know you would.

5:07 PM;

Suddenly feel like musing (maybe it's the history aftermath/oncoming promos) okay I guess I really should stop going online so much maybe except for doing project work and typing history essays and literature essays.

When We are two worlds
Apart
Can't reach to Your heart

Am I
Your Fire
Your One
Desire

Really should stop dreaming...ha.
So I guess after this post, it will be the last until after september ends or maybe another post dedicated to my birthday haha. *Wake me up when september ends* On another note, no thanks. Lol.

5:58 PM;

Photos ahoy! Haha a huge amount of photos taken with Faith (lol), Amelin and Puay Suan on friday night. Triggered the photographer in me haha yeah. Photos credited to Faith's camera and editing.

4:51 PM;

Yawn. I'm still tired. Yesterday went out the whole day from morning till night because yesterday was the triple eight day. Oh well, missed the nice date to blog. So happy national day and happy birthday to my darling girl, Amelin. =)))

12:09 PM;

How sia. Just got the message that I've been selected for the Chiangmai, Thailand CIP overseas trip thing. A part of me feels like chickening out but then...I went for the interview and all...so...out of your comfort zone girl! ...Shall be my first overseas trip without my family......omg the horror of it all?? Or maybe it's a way for independence, been so sheltered like a piece of crap already. Ahah, it will be for ten days and then you will have to learn how to wash your own clothes and all. ....Oh well, think of it after promos.

8:53 PM;

These days are really hot, it fires my brain and my mood and my thoughts. The global warming is really going to kill us one day, a sad irony.

Had a crazy thrill just now, when I went out with my mom to collect the dry-cleaned formal wear. I swear I'm gonna be faced with financial issues next time when I start working because I got 4 pairs of earrings and bracelets and 2 rings and a bag at a good discount for the dry-cleaning...total of $19 excluding the bag. I think my accessories can tell a story already. Guilty...


New crazy fetish and maybe because my face's too tanned for silver earrings


A glorious sunset one evening got me pondering

Are there hidden angels or stars

6:03 PM;

be with myself

Affirmation

cappucino on a rainy day,
snuggles in the warmth of blankets,
hot food in the arms of hunger,
huge umbrella of a stranger,
embraces in the rain,
smiles amidst frowns,
sincerity..
triumphs and singing of the heart

clarity

Raindrops like candlewax
Drowning in a
Solid sculpture, you Burning and cold.

peace

Independence
Health
Baking skills
Yoga/Electone lessons
Love
Faith
Happiness

serenity.

*HUGS* TOTAL! *HUGGIES* snuggles & cuddles

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Cousin ♥
amelin =)
fiona =)
ke*hua =)
edwin =)
sim*yee =)
yi*chen =)
anna =)
♥ trains

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